Love lead me

I never liked jazz music because jazz music doesn’t resolve. But I was outside the Baghdad Theatre one night when I saw a man playing the saxophone. I stood there for fifteen minutes and he never opened his eyes.
After that I liked jazz music.
Sometimes you have to watch somebody love something before you can love it yourself. It is as if they are showing you the way.

Blue like Jazz - Donald Miller

My early Christmas list..

I know that October isn't over, Halloween hasn't sprung with it's skeletons and candy-overload, the first snowfall hasn't snuck up, and midterm exams aren't over, BUT I'm already writing my Christmas list. However this year's list is quite a lot different than years past. For one, it's not possible to buy anything on this list. And for two, you'd probably be putting God out of a job if you could wrap any of these things up to put under my Christmas tree.

So here is my list of everything I want for Christmas this year.

1.) My roommate's will to break and her to find Jesus in the midst of her brokenness. And for ups to stay up and downs to disappear.

2.) For my parents to still live in Kelowna, yet miraculously be only 15 minutes away from my apartment when I want to see them.

3.) For Kittens and puppies and all medium to large animals of this world to get the love that they deserve. And for them not to get abandoned on the sides of roads and flushed down toilets.

4.) Hillsong to come to Nanaimo.

5.) And world peace. Obviously.

Oh love

Strong like a mother holds her child
Free as horses runnin wild
And real as a prayer on a lonely night
And sure as the ocean tide.

Oh love, oh love
All the many colors that you’re made of
You heal, you bleed
You’re the simple truth and you’re the biggest mystery
Oh love, oh love.

Deep as the life from God’s own breath
Endless even after death
Gone like the sunset.

You can break a heart in pieces
Put it back together again.
You can break down sweet forgiveness
You’re the one that never ends.

Oh love, oh love
All the many colors that you’re made of
You heal, you bleed
You’re the simple truth and you’re the biggest mystery
Oh love, oh love.

Uniquities

• I have three best friends. They all live further than 2 hours away from me and none of them know each other.
• When I was born, my grandpa was dying from lung cancer. We would visit him in the hospital; which is consequently where I learned to walk, and I would cuddle with him on his lap. I was his 'angel sent from heaven to replace him.'
• I have 2 brothers and 4 sisters. None of them are biological. (I also have 3 other mothers.)
  
• My mother dropped me on my head when I was a baby.
• I have eight piercings and only 5 are immediately visible.
• I love cowboys and I think that a flannel button up shirt, nice fitting jeans and a cowboy hat are the sexiest things in the world.
• My family thought I was going to be a veterinarian when I was little because other than snakes, I have never found an animal I didn't love.
  

John 17: 13-16

"I could say," her mother went on, "that living among the hakujin has tainted you, made your soul impure, Hatsue. This lack of purity envelopes you- I see it everyday. You carry it with you always. It is like a mist surrounding your soul, and it haunts your face like a shadow at moments when you do not protect it well. I see it in your eagerness to leave here and walk in the woods in the afternoon. I cannot translate all of this easily, excepts as the impurity that comes with living each day among the white people. I am not asking you to shun them entirely- this you should not do. You must live in this world, of course you must, and this world is the world of the hakujin - you must learn to live in it, you must go to school. But don't allow living among the hakujin to become living intertwined with them. Your soul will decay. Something fundamental will rot and go sour. You are eighteen, you are grown now- I can't walk with you where you are going anymore. You walk alone soon, Hatsue. I hope you will carry your purity with you always and remember the truth of who you are."

- Snow falling on cedars.

The difference between 18 and 19

There's a whole lot more than one number inbetween 18 and 19...

• I enjoy it when my daddy calls me kiddo and my mommy calls me pumpkin. I'm proud to refer to my parents as 'daddy' and 'mommy'. Not everyone had as good of parents as I did, and I'm starting to realize that.
• My legs no longer bend quite as easily and in quite the angle that they used to.
• I have joined the four-eyed species.
• A boyfriend changed from an accessory to a life-time commitment.

And the biggest thing:

My little sister and I were watching Harry Potter the other day and this is how the conversation went.

Annie- "Ron is really cute. He might have to retire soon though, he's getting old, like you!"

Wanted: A snuggle buddy

General job duties:

• this employee will take over the position of the recently deceased; Mr. Teddy
• during work hours, this employee will provide comfort, warmth, and cute phrases to the benefit of the employer (me)
• overtime is required and the employee chosen will constantly be on-call
• must provide good movies, fun and serious conversation and a plethora of original romantic/cute lines

Requirements:

• must be of the male variety
• experience is not necessary, although a general knowledge in the physics of spooning would be preferable
• a sense of humour is required for duties related to snuggling-on-the-couch-during-movies
• subjects with skills in the areas of sweet-talking, hand kissing, and general cuteness will be preferable
• a love of my friends is required and subjects being considered must not become overly attached to the point of clinginess

Please note:

• subjects with excess hair, body odour, or strange noise-making habits will not make it past the screening process
• subjects with tendencies to smoke, fart, belch, say rude things, and comment on the attractiveness of other girls will not make it to the screening process